Feelings

Well is it weird to care for something but it was never your responsibility to care for it anyways. Its interesting isn't it to have lost something that was not even yours to begin with. Normally people do these kind of things.

It's interesting how they react ....the expression on their face is just priceless. To actually think you lost something that was not even your to begin with. But people tend to make mistakes in life and that's why its called life.

Had a friend he had something and actually practically owned it ......but thing which i am referring is a person ....realize what am i doing waiting on him when he keeps hurting me ......she then releases herself from his possession and turns the tables on him. Now the thing is that he is the one being owned by her and has no power to do anything but wait. The thing how long will he wait ......

There is another predicament. It has to do with this boy. Always waiting for the right moment to confess his undying love( being a bit melodramatic here ).....but then never gets the chance till the last moment which is also not the right time at all. Who could have foretold what would have happened if he did it sooner....that is something we can't predict. The thing is the was sad, sad he had lost the girl of his dream, his love, his jewel ( I can't help myself ) but then it took him a long time .....a very long long time to notice .....he had to be away from everyone to notice that ......she wasn't his to begin with......losing something that is not your means you haven't lost anything at all.

She was not going to accept him either way......and he still cared but the thing is she did not return the feelings is any small quantity.....this thing she was comfortable on the friend level.....what could he do .....but just sit and wait till his real love of his life came along and he could sweep her of her feet.....DRAMATIC ISN'T IT .....AMAZING IMAGINATION XD

Australia

well lets the weather is crap ....it has been cold for a few days now .....XD hahahha winters coming soon 'jeng jeng ' XD kakakakaka

anyways just felt bored ahahaha

Been a long time

Where do I even start there is so much that has happen over the past year. Lots of better sweet memories, i really can't believe that i have already completed my pre-u. Time flies but so fast when you are having so much fun.

Just to update you, i was currently doing my ICPU( International Canadian pre-university). I finished and graduated this programme from Taylor's University college. And nope i aint no rich kid people, only Taylor's had this course which i wanted and totally love to bits.

Now it has ended and im off to Australia in February. I am either going to rmit or monash XD. well thats all for now

MAKING A COME BACK!!!!

Its has been a really long time people...... like when i haven't blogged like in AGES....whats new lets see

1. im in taylors university college

2. its already my 2nd semester

thats about it there is so much to talk about but dont really have any focus on any particular topic. what to do im confused LOL.

WHAT HAS HAPPEN TO ME

OK,people its countdown time ....spm is like in 2 weeks believe it or not ....and im shitting in my pants totally wei......but look at the bright side ...it will be over soon just cnt for it to end man .....but what news i have to tell you ......im going to the prom but who im going with is yet a mystery .......

XD


LOL.............but spm sucks to the max man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HELP SOMEBODY CALL 911 OR SOMETHING .......but anyways i have been studying .....but man its kinda getting hard ....really hard .......dont know what wrong with me ....getting fat and all OMG ....man i dont know whats wrong i think im getting really weird ........getting emo all so easily .....but thats so not me ......

something is really wrong ......what could be the freaking problem i really dont know
well this could be the list
1.SPM
2.IM FUCKNG FATT
3.BOT GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP
4.COULD BE ABOUT A GIRL
5.I CANT BLOODY DRIVE
6.SOMEHOW I REALLY FEEL PEOPLE THINK THAT IM A NUT ....OR SOME WHAT RETARDED
7.YES PEOPLE I HAVE ARTHRITIS .......WHY DONT YOU ALL CALL ME FATT SOMEMORE
8.THE REASON IM FAT
9.COULD IT BE THE PEOPLE CALLING ME FAT
10.MAYBE IM JUST STRESSED OUT
11.MY TRIALS WERE SHIT

OK,thats done ....well lets I think im dumb .....so very dumb ........well why am i saying that well my trials kinda sucked ......so yea .....its like when you dont knoe anything .....people look at you like some DUMB shit ......hell I dont bloody know the facts thats why im asking XD .....lol (for your info im just realesing steam...but i do feel like this sometimes)

ladida its fine huh ........ok where were we ....oh wait we were on the same topic all along ...man theres is something seriously wrong with me ........somebody out there that can help LOL .....dont know why just feel sad most of the time .....may look happy on the inside ....but somehow i think there something missing for me .......ALL I KNOW WHAT MISSI IS FIRST ....I GOTTA GET THOSE As for SPM first then im gonna straigthen out my life which really needs some attention XD

BEEN A LONG TIME

Wow spm is nearing...I am totally stressed up i really dont know whether 1 month is enough for me to catch.Oh well,if believe i can then i can.School is gonna be my past soon....the question comes to my mind...will i miss school,the teachers,friends and everyone that has been with me since form 1...........

I just want to tell of you thank you .....i gonna miss every single one of you .....gonna miss the laughter we shared in class....the fun we had together .....man i sound so gay .....too bad ......anways we all you it wouldnt have been worth it ....school would just been another day .......so i ahve decided to tell everyone in the world about them

1.Yee yang

the boy who jumps and can make the whole floor shake.

also he has a big head which everyone can see

overall he is a good friend and loves pool ....

2.henky

our lovable friend henky ...the artist of our class ..

although he is quiet most of the time

man he is totally dirty minded ...overall he is a good guy and loves to eat

3.guna

well he is the funniest guy in our class..he will make you start laughing in seconds.

he also our baskeball,futsal,and running star ....the last of all he is the a good friend anyone would have ..

4.onn chong

our class monitor,our spartan king ....he comes with the most craziest and wackiest ideas ...you could call him the idea machine of our class...he is and overall gentleman .and a great friend

5.nikkil

the genius of our class ..also known as the 'indian'of our class....he is tall,dark and handsome...when you need him for basketball dont forget to call him cause he will come handy .....he is a great friend to have and never lets you down

6.hock leong

our tomato head of our class...when he laughs he goes all red in seconds....he is also the body builder of our class ..man he is heavy...he also is a great friend to have fun with and you can always count him to heelp you

7.adrian

the square head of our class ....this guy can never shut up ...he always go on and on with his basketballl ....but he is a good friend to have and has some basketball skills to prove hist worth lol

8.wilson

he is so innocent half of the time he doesnt even know what is going on in class....he always sleeps in class ...although when it comes to girls he goes all woooooooo.....he is a good friend and you can always count on him being there for you.

9.irfan

Well this guy has been my friend since standard one ....and i tell you he is a great guy ....wouldnt change anything about him .....he is always there for you when you need him,if you need someone tat can eat call him .....and overvall he is one of my best friends.

10.yong jiat

Well....he is known as the sleeping beauty in our class.there not one chance he will pass up if he gets to sleep ...but everyone knows he is still a man and like duh his mind is extremely open minded LOL...dont bro we still love you

11.Amir

Si penyu of our class....i still dont knoe why he got that name ...but this guy is so sometimes so funny and at times really lame .....although he is still a cute little gut who is always open to new stuff and loves to have fun when the time is right ....rock on amir

12.jia jiet

This guy i tell you dont take his bottle or else he will punish you......he loves computers and loves to watch really funny and weird videos ....he also plays badminton and loves to show just joking but overall he is nice guy but very quiet.

13.Jun Qin

Thi guy well he may seem like he hates talking ....but trust me on msn he loves talking to the max....he is nice guy and is a great friend just that he doesnt like to talk cause his jaws are sensitive XD but overall we still love him

14.Matthaeus

Well he is the eye candy for alot of girls in the lower forms 'i think'....anyways he loves telling sex jokes non stop.....but he can really play the guitar people and i mean really play...overall he is a great friend to have ....and knows how to relax and take a break but sometimes too much LOL

15.Asyraf

He is short ,dark and handsome LOL .....well he too has been my friend since standard 1 and i tell you he is a great and fun friend to have although he kinda has big mouth meanin he cant except that he is short lolXD......but we all still love him no matter how short he is LOL

17.Adib

Well he is kinda of the angle of our class ...he never does anything wrong but he knows gow to fun at time ...also he is a great friend to have ....

18.Miyumi

Well she is the japanese of our class .she gets red really fast and really loves to laugh really loudly when something is just too funny ......

19.Hannah

Well all i she loves to read ,she loves pink ,loves sushi and most of all herself which i think is a good thing

20.Sarah

well she is practically like my sis ...but to others like our mom she know how to give us words of wisdom and always make us feel better ..besides she would there for you eventhough you dont notice at times ....but she is the best any guy ,girl could ask for

21.mariam

she has a sweet smile and is most of the time quiet in class...but she is a friendly person to hang with

22.Tien mie

she well is a great listener and also the best person to come when your down ...she would just know what to do to cheer anyone up......she a great friend to have and has a talent the piano my i add

23.yvonne

well she is the brainiest of us all but dont get her wrong she is no geek ....she is sporty and can suprise ....she might even shock you till you cant talk .....she knows when to have fun and life her life ........and would never forget her

24.Jin yin

well she does love pink ....this girl can really talk and can really help you alot in solving your problems.....when ever you need she is there to call for help ....she too knows how to enjoy life and let me tell she is so crafty you can even tell

25.husna

well she our money demander when teachers ask for it ....and she is good at it ...she a great sense of humor and can really make you feel comfortable

26.syahida

she has the cutest laugh you have ever heard and is always bubbly and nothing seems to make sad.....she has colourfull personality that can has a tendency to make any random person like her

27.nurul firdaus

well she is short but dont mess with her .. you say something wrong well she will make you pay for it ....she really is a great friend to have and can really make you laugh......the mole to her face adds up to her personality

28.roszieka

well she is one hyperactive girl i have ever seen and man she is crazy at times she can just laugh out of no where ...but overall she knows how to have fun and her laughter can be a toll with the boys LOL

FINE YOU WIN ILL JUST ADMIT IM WRONG

She writes:



I know I hurt you. But what you're trying to do to me, yes it may hurt me, but what you're looking for, that satisfaction, it's impossible to get from vengeance. I cared for you, i really did. Clearly you don't trust me enough to believe that. I can't do it anymore. I give up. 5 conditions for me to be your friend? Who the hell are you? Who? Cause who i knew, isn't there, or maybe he wasn't there to begin with. You don't need/want my friendship? I have no loss or no gain. Let it all burn. And do you possibly think I need you? Don't make me laugh. It's done. So stop telling stories and asking for advice. 90% of people think you shouldn't forgive me? well 99.99% of me doesn't want to forgive you, but I do anyway. You're no saint either. What you did to me, was really unbearable, really crossing the line. Search for the real reason why you hate me so much, and when you do I hope you find the mature thing to do. And don't give me that mature for your age crap, wake up and stop giving excuses. For the last time, I'm sorry. Forgiveness is your decision to make, your peace to find. At the end of the day, I've done my part on apologizing, and I have forgiven you. I have found peace in God and myself, my job is done. I'm gone. Wish you all he best.







But in some cases, talking is the problem. Talking it out, the person may not respond the way you expect the person to. It ends up in anger. In my case, that person keeps coming back and blowing everything up in my face. I don't know what he expects. I really don't. But all i know is i really want to just forget about it. Reminding me of how I disappointed you, which I have heard about 10 times, isn't going to change anything. And no, I'm not feeling guilty. Appreciation is earned. Can't be forced. Takes time too. So if you find you keep feeling angry, i can't help you. That's up to you. I'm doing fine by the way, sorry if i disappointed you, but I'm happy now. Haunt me all you want, think you're the only one who doesn't care? Be a friend and I'll be a friend to you. That's all I have to say to you. If you're not interested in saying something edifying just don't say anything at all. In your case you think I have to deserve the last chance. Well the last chance you gave me, think twice about which category it's in. Try looking into the "payback" or "demanding" or "forcing" category, hint big enough? And yes, I'm extremely judgmental.





ok,by the time you read this post i think we wont be in school anymore...so here it goes ...i know im no saint ..i know i was wrong from the way i treated you.but i did all that only for one reason ..i just wanted you show me that you at least appreciated me thats all .a simple thank you ..thats all .....but you couldnt do it ....

and you said appreciation was earned ...dont tell me i didnt do anything to try and earn your respect and trust ...anyways ...we will just go what you say ...im a not a guy and im useless ...but oh well thats the truth right like you said the truth hurts right .....

well here is the truth .....when i said i loved you i meant it ....eventhough you dumped me i hated you so much but i said i will be your friend to end and thats the truth.....you wanted me to tell you the truth so here it is .....i never did hate you at all ...neither have i judge you ....from what i see i wasnt a good enough friend , guy or anything for you ....so you got what you want right you wanted him to came back .....so here he is .....telling you everthing inside him ......i really wanted to forgive but now since when you said i dont know your real side ....you said i wouldnt want anythin to do with if i knew ....maybe you were right .....

you said to how can you appreciate someone if they hate you so much ......then let me say this HOW CAN I KEEP COMING BACK AND BACK AND BACK AFTER YOU KEEP HURTING ME .........so ill take all the blame ......you think i would throw the book .....no way .....you know cause i appreciate the book .so dont try and come teach me how to be a friend ....cause i know how to be one.so yea .......ill admit im wrong .....and ill just with everything you say about me ok .........

everything ok......now ill let you be .....your the right one .......